Deadly Crush

My thoughts, consumed by your wickedness

My mouth, poisoned by your name

My dreams, haunted by sights of you

I try to wash you away with James and Jack

I try to exhale my thoughts of you into the night air

I try to release you from the prison I have created

You’re trapped in the maze within my mind

You’re in my thoughts, my dreams, and in my heart

You’re my crush

Mother Deareast

I continuously wonder where you were when I needed you the most,

but you were always there, staring blankly into my dark eyes.

You recognized that I was dying because you were dying too,

but you never dared to do a thing.

You turned the other cheek as I let down my black veil.

I saw you when the black cloud became your only friend.

I tried to help, but you refused.

I know I cannot place all the blame on you,

but I want you to help me when I ask.

I want you to be there for me.

I want you to be my mother.