My thoughts, consumed by your wickedness
My mouth, poisoned by your name
My dreams, haunted by sights of you
I try to wash you away with James and Jack
I try to exhale my thoughts of you into the night air
I try to release you from the prison I have created
You’re trapped in the maze within my mind
You’re in my thoughts, my dreams, and in my heart
You’re my crush
I continuously wonder where you were when I needed you the most,
but you were always there, staring blankly into my dark eyes.
You recognized that I was dying because you were dying too,
but you never dared to do a thing.
You turned the other cheek as I let down my black veil.
I saw you when the black cloud became your only friend.
I tried to help, but you refused.
I know I cannot place all the blame on you,
but I want you to help me when I ask.
I want you to be there for me.
I want you to be my mother.