Mother Deareast

I continuously wonder where you were when I needed you the most,

but you were always there, staring blankly into my dark eyes.

You recognized that I was dying because you were dying too,

but you never dared to do a thing.

You turned the other cheek as I let down my black veil.

I saw you when the black cloud became your only friend.

I tried to help, but you refused.

I know I cannot place all the blame on you,

but I want you to help me when I ask.

I want you to be there for me.

I want you to be my mother.

One Dark and Stromy Night

It was a dark and stormy night.  A night that makes you shake and shiver and sweat.  A night that you are sure not to forget.

You try to hide, but nothing stays hidden in the darkness for long.  The only light comes from a quick flash in the night sky.

The wind taps at the window, begging to be let in.  But you can’t welcome the outside when you’re still afraid of the inside.

Tonight makes you think. And that storm scares you more than anything.

The Stigma in the Shadows

Mental Health!  Boo!  Did I scare you?  No, then why do we seem to run away from the term?  Why can’t we admit that ts ok not to be ok?

According to the World Health Report, mental health currently affects around 450 million people.  While treatments are available, nearly two-thirds of people with a known mental disorder never seek help.  The mental health issues surrounding today’s youth have risen to an all-time high.  According to the Teen Mental Health Website, “1 in 5 young people suffer from a mental illness, that’s 20 percent of our population but yet only about 4 percent of the total health care budget is spent on our mental health.”  Not only that, but the United States experiences an average of 121 suicides per day.

Mental health effects everyone!  We shell out thousands of dollars on our physical appearance, yet pay no mind to our inner appearance.

We pay monthly gym fees to stay thin or muscular.  Ad agencies pay thousands upon thousands for beauty that is displayed on bus stops and tv screens.  Special doctors are paid top dollar to adjust our body’s in order to fit society’s strict standards.  We are so caught up on physical perfection, that we forget to realize that we are imperfect and sometimes broken beings.

While the topic of physical health and beauty remains prevalent, mental health stays hidden.  Why can’t we pull mental health out of the shadows and out in the open?

Some believe that mental health and the disorders surronding it are not real.  Others are too afraid of their own issues to acknowledge it.  And some aren’t aware of its existence at all.

This stigma that mental health is to remain silenced is mental!  Mental health is very real.  In order to spread more awareness we need to educate, broadcast, and empower.

Schools need to discuss mental health more thoroughly in health class.  Instead of merely reading a definition, we need to have an open discussion on what to do and how to help.  We need to offer help and compensation in the workplace.  And most importantly be honest.

We can help prevent confusion, crimes, and even death if we speak up for mental health.  If we continue to regret mental health and all of its integrity, we reject others and, in turn, we reject ourselves.

Reaction Piece on the Bill Cosby Mistrial

For me, the recent outcome of the Bill Cosby trial and trials similar to that one are an absolute disgrace and slap to the face.  This trial, essentially, discredits the severity of sexual assault and the voice of victims.  Though we have made progress throughout the years, we still have so very far to go.  Trials like Cosby’s and men like Donald Trump, destroys not only the credibility of sexual assault victims, but the spirit of the victims as well.  People often wonder why sexual assault victims don’t speak up or wait so long to speak up, and it is because of men like this who so easily walk free.  Each victim’s reason for not immediately sharing his or her story will be different.  Continue reading “Reaction Piece on the Bill Cosby Mistrial”

Bill Cosby Trial Ends in a Mistrial

On Saturday, June 17th Bill Cosby was released after a lengthy trial.  Cosby was accused of sexual assault and misconduct of at least 50 women; however, Cosby was only put on trial for the alleged assault of Andrea Constand.  Constand accused 79 year old Cosby of drugging and assaulting her at his home in 2004. Continue reading “Bill Cosby Trial Ends in a Mistrial”

Love’s Limits in Aceh

It baffles me that homosexuality is considered a crime.  A relationship between two consenting, same-gendered adults is considered illegal.  Essentially, love is considered illegal.

I feel very lucky to live in a country that accepts my preferences and interests.  I feel blessed that I can be myself within the place I call home.  Granted, there will always be people who don’t believe in the ‘idea’ of homosexuality, but I know I won’t be punished for who I love and who I am. Continue reading “Love’s Limits in Aceh”